Couldnt i ignore the whole world for a while?

A late night, cold weather and i was wearing a single shirt so, i was not only shaking becaus of cold weather, i was tired too, and we all were waiting for the bus in birlen city, when i saw the crowed on the bus station i realized that we were not the only people who was waiting for the bus.

Most of other people were drunk and sleepless becaus it was saturday night and everyone was coming from a party or disco, the bus arrived and everyone was trying to enter the bus before others though they can set on a seat instead of standing and we were lucky we could get a seat, i was looking to the people standing in the bus, some of them were alone and some were couple, the couples seemed happy and they were talking to each other and busy with each other, but only single people were looking that they missed or lost something especially single girls, i was also thinking becaus i was single too but i was thinking about them and i dont know what were they thinking about?

Next station arrived and i thought that some people will get down and the crowed will be less but it was unlike more people come into the bus they were also like others accept one girl, she was beautifull, tall, alone and she was looking innocent everyone could read something from her face, when i saw her at the begining i thought she is crying but not, than i thought she is drunk but she was not drunk too and she was not angry too but i could see anger in her face, she was not looking ot anyone and someone could imagin that she is unhappy from the whole world and she hate whole world, i was eagerly looking to her face i dont know why couldnt i stop looking to her maybe i was too carious to know what is going on with her, maybe she was beautifull, or maybe something was wrong with me.

i couldnt realized how quick the last station arrived, i dont know why we always suffer from time, when we need it its running too fast but always let us in wait when we dont need it, every one got down the bus but i still wanted to look to her and i thought if i could get a chance to ask her or talk to her, i didnt know that she will go completly on opposite way from us, what could i do than? i could go on her direction and most probably i could get a chance to know alots of secrets in life, and most probably i could get a chance to talk to her, but what i did? i chose to come with my friends to hotel, but her skitch still remain in my mind, it still bother me and still i want to know alot about her. but everything is finished now, i cant see her again and i will regret this for long time.

i dont know why couldnt i do what i wanted to? maybe i was scaring from my friends that they will think me wrong, and offcourse they would do that becaus leaving friends in midnight and following a girl means alots of things but i swear i am not talking from the wrong sense, and if i am absulotly honset and innocent than why couldnt i ignore the whole world for a while and why couldnt i do what i wanted to do, maybe i am still too weak, but i promise another time i will ingore the whole world and do what ever look fine to me, and i dont care what people think about me i will only care for what i need to do. 

My Mood: Sad Sedih